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Lights, camera, action… 

Today we filmed our follow up with Julie Cornell from KETV. 

Julie, me (holding Tierney), Missi (holding Ashlynn), and Court

I’ve been fortunate enough to keep in touch with Julie since she came to our ultrasound in January. We’ve texted back and forth and have become friends. Not only did this journey bring Missi and Court two sweet babies but it brought me a pretty awesome friend! Everything happens for a reason 😀

That being said, it does NOT make being on camera with her ANY less awkward. It’s like… the camera turns on and I become the most awkward, sweaty, rambling idiot. 😜

Missi and Court did great. And obviously the babies were wonderful! 

I don’t know when the story will air but I will update when I know more. 

Julie and Ashlynn

Stay tuned….

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Today marks 1 month since the girls were born!  Time is flying by!!! They are now just above their birth weights and they are thriving!! 

Left – Tierney. Right – Ashlynn

Four weeks ago, Missi and I were sitting in a room at hot doc’s office. They had done an ultrasound and everything looked ok. Hot doc was slightly concerned about my BP (again). He became more concerned when I told him I had a mild headache. That’s when he told me I was going to the hospital. Thank goodness I had taken my bags!!!  

My BP just continued to rise and within 3 hours of us arriving at hot doc’s appointment, the girls were born!  

It all happened so fast! 

Since their birth, I’ve enjoyed visiting the girls and hanging out with my nieces. I get all the snuggles in the world and then get to give them back to mom or dad when they poop! 😜 

Missi and Court are fantastic parents… though no one had any doubt they would be!  It’s fun to see Court handle the girls… soooo…gently as if he’s afraid they will break.  And Missi is the typical mom… takes over jobs that Court is not yet confident with (securing the girls in their car seats). Usually Missi feeds one and Court feeds one but Missi is getting the hang of feeding both at one time!  That’s a skill in itself! 

Missi is also starting to join the baby wearing trend!  We went shopping for a wrap the other day. She tried it on when we got home:

Obviously she was being funny! 😂. She eventually figured it out 🙂:

I’ve been spending my time off doing things around the house. Cleaning that got neglected. Yardwork, etc. I’ve also started walking again!  I’m up to 5 miles a day and I’m really enjoying being active! I’m 3 lbs away from my pre-pregnancy weight… but man, these 3 lbs will NOT come off. 

Sophie and I went for a mini hike.

Thankfully, my BP has stabilized and I am now off my BP meds!  Dr. G says everything looks good!  

Today is also the day that Missi and I picked for me to stop pumping for the girls. I’ve been pumping for the last 4 weeks and I’ve been producing enough to feed BOTH girls!  This is a huge accomplishment. Twins are hard!  

But today is the day I must stop. I return to work in 2 weeks and I want to be dried up by the time I return. 

5 days worth of milk
Last pump!

I woke up this morning to ginormous, engorged boobs. I stopped waking to pump in the middle of the night a long time ago. So I wake up ready to pump every morning. The fact that I couldn’t pump this morning was extremely hard!  I’ve been given advice by some friends and I kinda knew what to expect. Pain. 

Friends told me to hand express in the shower, ice packs in the bra, take Sudafed, and cabbage leaves on the boobs. 

They weren’t lying when they told me it would be painful. I could tell my boobs were SO full as they were even funny shaped!  And felt like I had rocks in them. 

I hand expressed into the sink this morning. Hoping for just a little relief. I was surprised by the emotion that hit me while I was watching my breastmilk go down the drain. I was hit with so much guilt!  Why?  I don’t know!  I felt like I should be giving my milk to the girls. I felt like it was such a waste to go down the drain. I had a wave of emotion hit me and I cried (hard core) for about 20 minutes. I felt crazy 😂. 

I texted a friend who bluntly reminded me that the girls have benefited from my milk for 4 weeks and they are off to a good start. She reminded me of how much I’ve done and that it’s time to move forward. I needed that little reminder today. 

So I moved forward 😀. I wrapped the boobs in an ace bandage and shoved some frozen veggies in there:

The cold felt so good!  I also took some Sudafed. After icing for a bit I put on my tightest sports bra and ran a few errands. I ended up coming back home after about an hour because my boobs hurt so bad lol. 

I’m hoping if I continue to hand express and ice that the pain will quickly go away. I expected pain but nothing like this!! 

My ONLY other complaint is lasting carpal tunnel pain in my thumbs and wrist.  Anyone ever experience this??? It started about 3rd trimester and I know it’s common in pregnancy (due to swelling). But the pain has gotten worse since delivering. In the mornings I can barely lift anything the pain is so bad. I plan on talking to my OB about it on Wednesday. 

So, today we celebrate our little 1 month old miracles!   And we celebrate the end to another journey (pumping). 

Just a reminder that tomorrow Missi, Court, and I all sit down with Julie Cornell (KETV) for our follow up interview. I will post more about when it’s gonna air when I find out! 

Stay tuned…. 

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Family genes???

Also, can I just share this?! 

Me -left. Ashlynn -right

My sister and I look similar… people tell us this, though we don’t see it. I don’t have her baby pic but to show our family genes… compare this pic of me with this pic of Ashlynn. What do ya think?! 

And how bout this one?! 

Left -Tierney. Right – Court

How amazing is it that one looks like Our side of the family and one looks like Courts side of the family?!  So cool!!! 

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Happy Easter! 

Happy Easter everyone!  It’s been almost 3 weeks since I delivered the girls!  They are healthy and doing well!  

Ashlynn is 6.6 lbs and Tierney is 5.5 lbs. Their pediatrician is pleased with their weight gain (they dropped significantly after birth). 

Here are some fun pics for y’all:

Ashlynn -left. Tierney -right.
Ashlynn -left. Tierney -right.

Missi texted me so proud. She said that Court went running and was gone during the girls’ feeding time. She managed to feed both at the same time all by herself!  (And no…don’t freak out… the bottles are not propped). 

Ashlynn finds hair
Jaelyn meets the girls.

This is my niece Jaelyn. She belongs to my older sister. She was so excited to meet the girls!  

As the girls continue grow it’s so fun to see their unique personalities. They are both so different!!! 

I’m doing well 🙂 I’ve begun walking again (about 3 miles a day) to try to get my endurance back!  I tire very easily!  Working to lose some of the pregnancy weight!  I gained 50 lbs with the girls!  I have 4 more lbs to go until I’m at my pre-pregnancy weight. That’s pretty exciting! 

I wanted to repost this link in case you missed it the first time. This was our interview with KETVs Julie Cornell. KETV is the #1 news station in Omaha and Julie is one hell of a journalist. The reason I am reposting this is because we will be doing a follow up interview with Julie (starring the girls!). I don’t have much information right now but I will share as I know more!  

Here is the link to the first story: 

KETV story

If you want to follow Julie Cornell, KETV, on Facebook here is a link to her post about the story. She will update as the follow up interview is about to air! Click below to follow/see the story! 
Julie’s post about the story

Last, I got this sweet, sweet card in the mail the other day. I saw it was from the hospital I delivered at. I assumed it was some standard “thank you” card. I opened it and read the sweetest messages!  We definitely chose the perfect hospital!!! It made my day 🙂 

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On the road to recovery! 

Well, I had the girls 10 days ago. I was in the hospital 5 days. My BP was still acting up (too high) so they put me on some BP meds. They weren’t comfortable with me leaving until they could get my blood pressure to a safe range. As of today, I am still on these meds but I’m hoping it’s temporary. They’ve already cut my dose in 1/2 so I think we are making progress!!! 

Also, while in the hospital my iron (hemoglobin) level dropped pretty low. Docs aren’t really sure why but they put me on iron temporarily while In the hospital but then took me right back off. Since being at home, I just haven’t felt great. I have headaches and I’m constantly cold…like… freezing!  That is SO not like me. So my OB drew blood today, put me back on iron, and we wait for the results. 

Other than that, honestly I feel great!  I cleaned my house yesterday. While I had great help when I was massively pregnant… it was so nice to clean it myself! 

Today, the dogs and I took a short walk. They are so happy to be back outside and having their normal life back! 

So far I have lost 36 lbs. It just kinda fell off. I think a lot of it was water weight because I was very swollen.  14 lbs to go to get to my pre-pregnancy weight. Yes…. I gained 50 lbs 😏

Now onto what y’all care about… the babies!  Ashlynn and Tierney are doing so well!  They went home from the NICU yesterday (4-5-17). Nine days in the NICU- not too bad!  All they needed was to learn how to eat. That’s it!  We got so lucky!  They weigh just under their birth weights (5.14 and 4.11). 

Here is a pic of them leaving the NICU: 

Tierney-left Ashlynn-right

Currently they are eating about 3 oz 6 times a day. Two times a day they are on a special formula just to fatten them up a bit. Missi and Court are feeding them with her breastmilk (bottle – previously pumped) or she is nursing. They are supplementing with my breastmilk that I am pumping. They also have some donor milk. It’s kinda like a buffet 😜

Today I got some baby snuggles!  Here is a pic of Ashlynn and I: 

Tierney was passed out in her swing so I didn’t want to bother her. Next time… she’s all mine!!!!! 

Here are some fun pics! 

A lot of people have asked me how I’m doing emotionally. I’m sure you are all curious. Most people assume I have a “motherly bond” with the babies. Honestly, I don’t. It wasn’t one bit hard to “hand them over” (figuratively) to Missi and Court.  They are the parents. 

Since the beginning of this journey I kept the mindset that they are not my babies. Biologically they are Missi and Courts. 

Postpartum can often be difficult for women. I think ALL women go through a hormonal shift. I did experience this. In my opinion, it was nothing severe. A few good cries and I was done.  I kept my emotions to myself (with the exception of ONE time which I had no control over 😂). I wasn’t crying because I didn’t have the babies. I think that was my biggest fear. If I showed any sort of emotion after birth (sadness, crying, etc) then people are going to assume that I’m crying because I want the babies.  Or that they should be mine or something.  THAT is so far from reality.  The babies are where they are supposed to be… with mom and dad!  

I am in a group online with women who are also surrogates. Some women have had numerous surrogacy pregnancies. Some this is the first. This, obviously, is my first pregnancy AND surrogacy. They were kind enough to warn me of the hormonal shift. They all go through it too. That helped me feel a bit more normal. 

I also have great support from my friends. Getting a message that says “if you cry, you’re not crazy…”  haha such a great reminder!  I got a couple of those. 

I received so many texts and messages from people checking in on me. I had visitors at the hospital. I love my friends!  

I enjoyed being pregnant. It got hard at the end. Most people say carrying twins is the hardest thing they have ever done. It was hard but so worth it. Would I do it again? Yes. (Maybe only transfer one embryo next time 😜). Do I want children now? No. Hahaha. 

I’m happy to be living my (somewhat) normal life with my furkids. 

I will continue to blog. Please feel free to continue following (or follow). I will update about the girls and how life is going! 

Stay tuned….